Monthly Archives: July 2010

Fake it ’til you make it.

Sometimes, you just gotta fake it. Really, really fake it. I fake happy, fake organized, fake ‘together’ until my everyday actions follow suit.

Today, I faked being energized at work. Granted, I needed a bit of caffeine to get me going (and to pick me up again around 1:30), but I didn’t sleep well last night, so I was happy to pretend like I had.

I faked wanting to run. I didn’t really want to run, but I read Caitlin’s recap of running 20 miles and I thought to myself, “I really have no excuse.” So I laced up my shoes and cranked out 4.93 miles in one hour. A 12:10/mile pace, but I’m happy with that. I know I’ll get better (if I can get down to 10:45/mile by October, I’ll be so thrilled).

Anyway . . . I faked it. I faked the enthusiasm for the run, decided on my running plan and just did it. And it was great. I feel incredibly accomplished, even if it is a much shorter run in the grand scheme of marathon training.

I faked it, I made it. And you can too. 🙂


Know yourself.

I’m challenging myself and pushing myself trying to train for a marathon in October. I keep trying to inspire myself, keep my motivation up and trust that I’ll do it right, but it dawned on me tonight . . . I don’t know if I really know that I can do this.

Now, before you jump in with the pep talk, let me explain . . . I don’t know if I know myself WELL enough to say that I can do this. I believe that I can, I certainly would like to think that I can, but I’m trying to run the entirety of the race this time . . . so can I do it?

Well, I really, really, really hope so.  I really, really, really want to. But in the mean time, I don’t KNOW that it will happen – I trust that it will.

A college professor of mine once said, “Sometimes, you have to jump and trust that there’s a net to catch you.” She was so incredibly right. So here I am, rather confused by my own over-cerebralization of things (I may or may not have made that word up). Here’s what I do know about myself, though . . .

– I have never met a vegetable I didn’t like

– I’m really good with kids

– I’m pretty funny

– Somedays, I’m even smart

– Inspiration comes easily, motivation and determination are more difficult

– I love being a vegetarian – I doubt I will ever eat meat again

– I still miss sushi, though

– I’ve started rock climbing again – it’s helping me get over a fear of heights stemming from a climbing accident

– My biggest flaw is that I quit before I get started

– I know I can find motivation and determination to get me to the finish line – as Nike says, “Just do it!”

There’s probably some other stuff I could mention, but I’ll table it here – after all, I am still learning.


Aahh, to be in a hammock. Image taken from

After two days of running — Monday was a good, long run after several non-running days and yesterday was a desperate attempt at a run with a slightly sore hamstring and serious sleep deprivation — I decided to take tonight off.  Today’s temperatures crept into the 90’s, so I knew it would be pretty warm to run after work anyway.

I would love to be one of those people who can get up at 5 am and crank out several miles before they even head to work, but I just don’t know if that’s possible. Of course I know it’s possible, but somewhere deep down I am hardwired to think that morning workouts are a drag, that I’ll never be able to do them (even though I know that’s a lie), and on some level, I’m sure I just don’t want to try.

Two days of exercise in a row and I’m recognizing my need to slow down, embrace challenge and accept that I’m not going to be able to run five miles, climb for an hour, do Pilates and an hour of yoga each day. One day at a time, Robyn. Baby steps.

I’m choosing to listen to my body and take a day off. I really pushed myself this week and I know that if I were to run tonight, I would end up grouchy, resentful and would probably quit before I really got started. I know myself well enough to say that my current level of fitness doesn’t leave me craving workouts (yet!).  I refuse to be defeated, though, and tomorrow’s a new day . . .

Tonight I’m cozy on the couch, enjoying my oscillating fan (no AC in my apartment) and watching reruns of Without a Trace. It’s good to rest — tomorrow will be a tough day.  Who knows – maybe I’ll even run in the morning.

(But I probably won’t.)

C’mon, get happy!

Sometimes, it’s good to just remember things that you love, the stuff that makes you feel good and happy . . .

  • a cup of coffee
  • dark, bitter chocolate
  • lemons
  • cooking something that turns out really tasty
  • a cupcake
  • going for a long run
  • a long drive in the foothills
  • a good yoga session
  • climbing a new route and making it to the top
  • Greek food
  • Josh Groban
  • a clean apartment
  • rockin’ out
  • list making
  • a glass of wine
  • a good smoothie
  • a tidy desk

I like some good “happy” . . . I think it’s very important to remind yourself to be happy — particularly during a busy week, when something not so great happens, or when you’re just having a hard time remembering to smile.  I think I’d like to make this a weekly post – and I certainly welcome comments of things that make you happy as well!  🙂

P.S. This was dinner last night — quinoa w/ black lentils and broiled Roma tomatoes. Deeeeeeelish! 😀

How to ruin your sleep cycle without even trying.

How to Ruin Your Sleep Cycle Without Even Trying in 3 Easy Steps:

1. Accept the truth that because it is a three-day weekend, staying up late on Sunday night is totally justified.

2. Stay up past 2 in the morning.

3. Sleep past 11 am.

Tah-dah!!!  And now you’ll find it exceedingly difficult to fall asleep before midnight tonight and make it to work on time tomorrow morning.

In my arsenal of fall-asleep-quickly supplies (because, sadly, insomnia strikes with greater frequency than I’m willing to own up to) I keep many aromatherapeutic goodies designed to help me fall asleep fast.  Lavendar chamomile lotion, pillow spray, bubble bath and candles all sit on my night table (or in the case of the bubble bath, in my bathtub).  I also recently picked up a small bottle of melatonin — a supplement to help me fall asleep.

Now, I typically eschew running to pharmaceuticals for relief — I’ve been known to tough out aches and pains for days rather than pop some Tylenol and I took only 2 of my prescribed Vicodin post-wisdom teeth removal (relying instead on a bottle of Extra-Strength Tylenol).  Needless to say, I was a bit hesitant to try this as a remedy for my sleeplessness.  It far surpassed my expectations.  Normally, sleep aids make me twitchy — as if my body is trying to fight them.  After taking a melatonin tablet (I learned that half of a tablet would still get the job done), I fell asleep with ease.

It didn’t overwhelm me, it didn’t make me feel exceptionally drowsy. I just sank into my bed and drifted off.  Really, it was quite lovely.  So given how late I slept today and my current plans for minimal activity (hey, I take my “rest days” in marathon training seriously), I am aware that I might need one later tonight, but I’m okay with that if it helps me get back on a regular sleep cycle.

Happy Zzzzzz’s, everyone!


In a desperate attempt to get some food in my stomach after more than 12 hours of not eating, I scarfed some cheese pizza and had a soda this afternoon.  Later, I had a cupcake and a Coke.  For dinner, I tried to redeem myself with a large salad (romaine with black lentils, feta and artichoke hearts dressed with some olive oil and lemon juice), but the damage was done.

Tonight, I went for a short (40 minute) training run.  I’m just starting marathon training and I seriously felt like crap today.  For starters I had NO motivation, no energy to run until late in the day and I had to guilt trip myself into putting my running shoes on.  Then, I didn’t quite get in three miles (my goal; I managed 2.77) and it felt like it took me forever just to get there.

Lesson learned: you are what you eat. I ate a bunch of crap today, I felt like crap today. I know it’s a holiday and tomorrow will be better, but oy . . . My body is craving some serious ruffage now.

In spite of my sluggish running, I also got in three 10-minute segments of Core Fusion Pure Arms & Abs before giving up and resigning myself to a better tomorrow.  I’m sure I smell amazing.

Post workout snack: plain Greek yogurt with fresh blueberries, a handful of rolled oats and a drizzle of honey. Delish!

A slower start.

I need to flex my blogging muscles . . . I’ve been stalling, lingering and flipping back and forth over whether or not I’d like to follow through with this blog.

I do.  I want to.  I guess I’ve just balked at the idea of putting something out there that I can’t keep up with.  In the interest of not stretching myself too thin, I think I’ll set a preliminary goal of two or three posts per week.  I can always post more frequently, but until I find the niche that I really want to be in, I know I shouldn’t overdo it.

I’ve just started training for a full marathon in October, which is exciting, to say the least.  I’m also climbing more consistently, which is good and fun.  Granted, I’m not exactly flying up the walls (still working on my fear of heights stemming from an accident where I fell about 12 feet), but I’m slowly progressing and each time I climb, I know I’m getting closer and closer to one day lead climbing (a slightly terrifying someday-goal of mine).

Currently, I’m working on a vision board . . . one that will have loads of pictures of all of the wonderful things I want in life — to cultivate good relationships, to become a better blogger (being more consistent is going to do wonders for that one, I think), and to one day run the Boston Marathon.  Currently, I run a 12:30 mile pace, so clearly we’ve got work to do, but if I put it on my vision board I really do have faith that I’ll make that happen.

So here’s to starting . . . again.  Bear with me folks, I’m a work in well-purposed progress.