I’m challenging myself and pushing myself trying to train for a marathon in October. I keep trying to inspire myself, keep my motivation up and trust that I’ll do it right, but it dawned on me tonight . . . I don’t know if I really know that I can do this.
Now, before you jump in with the pep talk, let me explain . . . I don’t know if I know myself WELL enough to say that I can do this. I believe that I can, I certainly would like to think that I can, but I’m trying to run the entirety of the race this time . . . so can I do it?
Well, I really, really, really hope so. I really, really, really want to. But in the mean time, I don’t KNOW that it will happen – I trust that it will.
A college professor of mine once said, “Sometimes, you have to jump and trust that there’s a net to catch you.” She was so incredibly right. So here I am, rather confused by my own over-cerebralization of things (I may or may not have made that word up). Here’s what I do know about myself, though . . .
– I have never met a vegetable I didn’t like
– I’m really good with kids
– I’m pretty funny
– Somedays, I’m even smart
– Inspiration comes easily, motivation and determination are more difficult
– I love being a vegetarian – I doubt I will ever eat meat again
– I still miss sushi, though
– I’ve started rock climbing again – it’s helping me get over a fear of heights stemming from a climbing accident
– My biggest flaw is that I quit before I get started
– I know I can find motivation and determination to get me to the finish line – as Nike says, “Just do it!”
There’s probably some other stuff I could mention, but I’ll table it here – after all, I am still learning.